I know ...

You probably all think I've abandoned this blog. I haven't. I'm just going through some seriously rough times, and they just keep coming, and I don't have it in me to stay focused. In spite of being genuinely happy for my friends and proud of their success, I have a hard time being at the meetings because I feel like a big, fat failure.

And then yesterday, Life dealt me a blow that I can't even wrap my head, let alone, my heart around. I literally lost my best friend. And now I can say I know how peanut brittle feels, because I feel like I've been snapped in half.

I think I ate about five points today. I should probably eat something tomorrow.