Beginning to really struggle.

I did not have a good food day yesterday. That is not to say that I overindulged, because I actually went to bed with 2.8 mandatory points still to consume. But I didn't eat anything I was supposed to eat (vegetables, milk, oil, water ...) and I ate quite a bit of useless junk. (Notable exceptions: a bagel and Oreo thin crisps at Jenn's.) I did, however, behave myself at Tim Horton's, and even though the walnut crunches looked good, I only had a diet coke.

Part of the current problem is that I'm now six weeks in and things have slowed down considerably. I'm also at a point where I feel "abnormal", because I'm not allowing myself to eat a lot of the things I used to, and I feel like I'm being punished. Even though my brain knows that this is what I should be doing, my body is the part with the ability to pout, stomp its foot, and cry. Walking through the supermarket yesterday, I'm sure I looked like someone had just died. In truth, Ben and Jerry's was seriously on sale and I knew that if I brought it into the house, I'd be toast. So as a consolation prize, I got myself one of those kid deli lunch packs with turkey, cheese and crackers. It was absolutely the wrong thing to eat, but I knew that the controlled serving would keep me out of too much trouble and make me stop pouting.

Weight-wise, I'm getting very close to 274, which is the next WW Daily Point Target boundary down. (I'll have to eat 30 points instead of 31.) I think, because I am so close, I'll start using 30 now and see if that helps. (I usually use a flexpoint or two each day anyway, so in essence, I'll just be using less flexpoints if I should be sticking with 31.)

Picked up a new cereal yesterday, Fibre 1. I haven't been getting enough fibre in -- in fact, I don't think I've hit my RDI of 25 g until this morning, with this cereal. At the risk of providing too much information, I will gently say that the fibre deficiency has been noticeable recently. But the cereal seems okay, if somewhat non-exciting, and I had two servings of it for breakfast in order to ... uh ... move things along. :)

The days of exciting weight loss are over, and we're in the "slow and steady" stage. I know that I was really disappointed in my weigh-in on Friday at WW, even though 0.8 is almost a pound and it was in the right direction. The pattern now seems to be same-same-same-DROP. If I can get through the "sames" without losing my mind, I'll be okay. And the "DROP", like this morning, will be worth it.